Good bye,Luken

the day before yesterday. the rain was pouring. the weather was cold. i was in the studio my friend owened. spent the grey evening and had shared the laughter.

my phone rang, the message came juz like a thunder in the sky.

one of my fella passed away... cancer stole him away..

i terribly shocked. it's such a common thing to face the death, but it won't be the same if we face someone we were hang out together with passed away. i was bloody speachless...

i still remember the day we laughed together.

when we treat each other so bad- yes,we always did- becoz he was the weirdest one of all, it's a good reason to treat someboby wrong,isn't it?-and i meant it-,spilt out the jerky word for him-yes,we did. i still remember the day we had a bad argue about how bad was his life and how useless he was. we made it like silly jokes-while we didn't meant it-u know,he's one of the kind..

i don't think it's kinda funny thing to reminded when the person was die..

i felt sorry and terribly guilty.

i never knew he suffered a cancer, i never knew he was sick coz he never shown us the pain. he was ok at that time. but now he's gone...

and what i've learn fromthis situation is i cinsider how many person i've treated bad? how many times i've treated them like a shit? hard to figure out though..

maybe life is so short.

who's gonna be the next? we never know. maybe the person is the one i love the most or maybe i hate the most or maybe the one who's sitting beside me..as heaven knows!

i do understand to change the pattern of friendship, juz try to appreciate people as much as God is appreciating me, no matter how hard it'll work..juz try the best i can be

and to all the people i've known-no matter where u r..u know,i never meant to be that rude. as u know, no matter how bad we were, i still have a heart for you,guyz..

good bye our dear friend, Luken...

we won't find the one like u..

may u rest in peace..

love,

achie